Well, it feels like I am off and running on July's page. Ok maybe it is just walking. I am beading the labyrinth as I would walk it. I lay down my peridot stones, then I have to back track and add in the light green moss and the darker green plants on the edges. So not only do I get to walk it, I get to garden at the same time.
I was picking what stone to use for the path, so I was reading Melody's book, Love is in the Earth. I read about peridot and knew it was the stone to use. This is what it said - It furthers the understanding of those changes which are occurring in one's life and it assists one in the recognition of the detrimental patterns which have been the basis for impairment in attaining that which is necessary for growth.
I realized I had been blaming other people for my feelings about myself. It is time to change, I am going to take responsibility for those feelings.
I was telling my mom about the journal and what I was beading for July. She went into the other room and came back with an antique key for me to use at the center of the labyrinth. Then my father painted it gold for me. That in itself felt very healing. And now there is a part of them in there also.